My twin boys make life so busy it seems to be blurring by and there are days when I really do feel like crawling under my doona and hiding from the world. It's on those days that I forget to stop and enjoy what I have. If nothing else I hope this blog will serve as a reminder for all the good, bad and bizarre in my days and maybe help someone else through theirs.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Decisions decisions decisions

So right now I am seriously thinking about a part time uni course, starting next year. I am painfully aware of the fact that I need to start preping myself for returning to work once the kids are at school AND prep myself for finding a job where I can still be around to pick my kids up from school AND chauffer them to after school activities AND help them with their homework AND get a good nutritious meal on the table for dinner, because I really do believe in eating well even though I don't necessarily practice this myself at times.

Anyways, so I've been looking into an online course majoring in internet communications with a touch of marketing thrown in. I figure from this I could potentially work from home or at least have flexible hours. BUT, I'm not sure how I'll fit it in. I keep thinking, somethings gotta give, I have to drop something to fit this in and that 'something' cannot be time with our rapidly growing boys. We only planned on having two children and we got them in one hit, so I don't get another shot at this. I don't want to miss a moment of them growing up, it wouldn't be fair on them and defeats the purpose of me staying home with them if all I ever do is use the TV as a babysitter while I "just get this one more thing done."

I think this blog post by Confessions of a Stay at Home Mum sums it up nicely: http://www.moderndaydonnareed.com/2011/06/what-she-doesnt-know.html#.UqQ-8-LNCaM

And this article on Huffington Post reduced me to tears, but slams home the fact that the most important "job" I have right now are those boys and the thing that scares me the absolute most right now is the possibility of not being there for them: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/rachel-macy-stafford/taking-off-the-ticking-clock_b_4306552.html

So what on earth do I drop? How do I fit it in? I have not a clue yet. Unless I find something of a self-paced nature which I doubt very much exists - but I can dream.

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